While in captivity the Hebrews prayed, wailed, for release. Cried out for freedom from the oppression, the exposure to foreign gods corrupting their beliefs. God answered those prayers. Granted, it took 400 years and before landing them where they wanted to go, He guided them through the desert. He did not provide the food they wanted, but the nourishment they needed (manna). Yet they became angry and frustrated wanting something else. So He gave them meat (quail), but in an attempt to get them to see His anger with their selfishness, He gave them so much meat that it made them ill (plague). Then jealousy arose. Why were only 70 chosen to be touched by God and why only in the temple? But not all were in the temple, two were outside and this made people jealous that not more could or would receive the gift.
Myself, I call this the winter of life. All people go through seasons in their lives. Springtime when things are fresh and blooming. Summer when things are blooming, maturing, rich in color and life. Fall when things age, change color, experience a cleansing by shedding leaves. Winter, rest.
In this season of your life where is your focus? Is it in the joy of the answered prayers, even if in the answers aren’t what you want? Do you want more than you’ve received? Are you jealous when others receive blessings you believe you should have? Are you excited about what God is calling you to do? Are you bathed in response? Do you feel lost? Maybe even doubting your own walk?
In the late spring and summer and early fall, times are good, blessings are obvious, and prayers are answered the way we want, it’s easy to believe and easy to forget to share the belief; we find it easy to walk in the Spirit.
But in the late fall and through winter and early spring, When times are not so good, when the weather is stormy and unpredictable, answered prayers are not so obvious. When the compass isn’t pointing in the direction we desire, we must rely on faith. An invisible, intangible thing we must rely on.